day 10

Woop! Double digits! I can't believe it's only been ten days. Not because I'm having the shakes or dying for a drink, but because I've already learned so much and noticed a lot of changes. To be honest I probably would've already fallen off the wagon, or at least had more trouble if it weren't for the blog. I was talking to my mom yesterday and compared it to a marriage. You're out and you see a really hot guy and you think "Wow, he looks good, I want him." Then you remember "Oh shit, I have a husband." A commitment keeps you honest (or at least should). And I think it's easier to commit to someone else than it is to yourself, because letting your loved ones down is a terrible feeling. Obviously its kinda pathetic that letting someone else down is "worse" in our minds than letting ourselves down, but I think it's a survival tactic. We are conditioned to deal with our own failures and move on. However as I've mentioned before, this is a self-exploration/improvement journey for me, and I am learning that I never have to let myself down.


Let's see, developments from my last entry...most exciting is that I'm back in the gym (with the two Courtney's)! If I can even get on my bike tomorrow morning it'll be a miracle. I also started a 21 day meditation challenge that I am loving! One of my goals of this year is to learn more about Buddhism (if you don't know, I visited Sri Lanka in 2010 and it absolutely changed my life, my views and sparked a huge interest in Buddhism for me). An old friend from my freshman year of college saw my blog and thought the meditation would be a good addition to my plan. Although I am an absolute novice (my thoughts stray), I am really loving how I feel and the topics it focuses on. So thank you Bridget, I have wanted to add meditation into my daily habits for a long time but wasn't sure where to start.


I am consistently shocked by how much more efficient I am now. My days seem so much longer, in a good way not in a "OMG this day is dragging" way. Not once in the past ten days have I had to throw up before work. I remember everything, my teeth look whiter (no red wine), I actually wear makeup to work everyday, my laundry never piles up and my hip bones and I have become reacquainted! Love love loving all my energy!!


Ooo speaking of my hip bones! Momma has decided to match my dad's pledge with a new wardrobe at the end of the year. However, based on current progress, I'm hoping to need smaller clothes in just a few months :-).


I'm kind of obsessed with my new lifestyle and I am not questioning my decision AT ALL! No-drinking is definitely the backbone that helps all my other good habits fall into place. But I was right before I even started, I do miss my red wine.